2 more days and i will be sending Nathan to grandma’s place during the day and only get to see him when i come back from work. How long will i take to get used to it?!! I am so so so so so so sad now. 
sob sob
Monthly Archive for October, 2009
I love kissing on Nathan’s check. Just love him so much. Don’t you feel the same way as i do. Better kiss him more before he becomes a big boy and don’t want daddy to kiss any more 
Things are always changing and happening in life, often not in our control… But hopefully we all can manage and adapt to the changes.
Soon mummy is going to be back at work. It’s going to be a big change for everyone. Mummy will be missing Nathan, thinking of him when at work. Grandma will be more busy looking after him alone. Nathan hopefully will get accustomed to it more easily than mummy. Cos babies can not tell us what’s wrong with them beside their cyring and whinning, which we often have lots of problem deciphering.
We love you Nathan.
Today when Nathan’s great grand uncle from Hong Kong carried him, he started to cry. He doesn’t do that usually. Usually he is ok with everyone. No matter who carried him or played with him, he will smile at them but today he started to cry a short while after the great grand uncle carried him. Wonder why. Has he started recognizing people? Can he recognize mummy and daddy? I hope for the day that he can recognize me and only want me or daddy to carry him
why why why why why
why do i have to go back
i want bb
i want nathan
i want to see bb every hour every minute
i dun want to see him on internet, i dun want to call him then can hear his voice
i want to see him and hug him as and when i like and want
why why why why why
i am so so so so so so so sad
why why why why why
who can understand me??!!!
i want bb!!!!!!!!!!
i love bb so much
am i starting work on Fri? hmmmm haven’t even told my boss about it
hiaz
hate this feeling
i wan to see Nathan everyday every hour!!!
counting down now…….feel so so so so sad…sob sob sob sob sob
mummy really really cannot bear to part with Nathan during the day on weekdays.
no more bathing Nathan during weekdays, no more playing with him and latching him on enjoying personal time together.
very very very very sad and lost.
i wan to be with bb everyday for as long as i can. i dun want to miss out any parts of his life especially when he is so young.
Mummy is hoping that darling can zzz through the nite as mummy is going to go back to work very very soon. So far Nathan’s record was last feed at 10pm and he wakes up at 4, whine a bit, we give him pacifier and he went back to zzz till 630 am. Which means he has gone 8.5 hours without any feed. We were hoping that he doesn’t even wake up at 4 am. For the past few days, he has been waking up at 4 am. There were 2 times he quiet down after giving him the pacifier and once i had to feed him. He only drank a bit then went back to zzz. But today he doesn’t even want to take the 10 pm feed. He just want to zzz. Duno wat time is he going to wake up tonight. Hopefully he can at least zz till the next morning 6 or 7 so that mummy won’t be so tired. Got to train him so that both daddy and mummy can have good nite zzz. Nathan good boy boy okie. We know you love mummy and daddy so help us okie?
The best gift i can ever give Nathan is my breastmilk. I had been full breastfeeding him all along. If my supply is dropping soon, can i still do that? I’m so so sad. Zk always say i’m too hard on myself. Am i? Prehaps.