My milk seems to have dropped. 
Think i have not been as hardworking as before in pumping the milk out. Sometimes i just ignore the engorgement. Lazy me. I shouldn’t have done that and should not have thrown away some of the milk. Think it is my retribution!! sob sob sob
I want to breastfeed Nathan as long as possible. I cannot take it that he is not going to latch on to my breast any time soon. These moments between us are so special and i don’t want it to end!
My milk supply seems to have dropped!! How how how how? Think i got to take some supplements to increase it. When i start work next week how? Hiaz…..
Monthly Archive for October, 2009
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We had an accident this morning while driving to my mum’s place. We were somewhere near my mum place when this accident happened. The car in front suddenly stopped. We stopped in time but the car behind us didn’t and it hit our car and we end up hitting the car in front as well. Our car was damaged in front and back. Luckily Nathan was ok. He was sleeping soundly in his car seat. When the accident happened. I let out a sudden cry and i think i gave him a shock. The bang was quite loud. I quickly looked at him. He wanted to start crying then i quickly put my hand on his tummy to sooth him. In the end he didn’t cry but can tell that he has a blank look and didn’t know what is going on. Thank god that Nathan is well and ok. Nothing can happen to him. When the accident happen my heart race so quickly that i was so shocked and worried that anything happen to Nathan. Nathan is the one i worried most now. He is a brave boy. He didn’t cry even though i think the accident does have a slight impact on his small body as the safety belt might have pulled him a bit. My little boy. Thank God Daddy is ok too! Mummy had a slight scratch on mummy’s face as mummy was pushed forward and rubbed my face onto the seat in front. As long as Nathan and daddy is ok. That is the most important.
Time flies, today is our 2nd anniversary. This year we have our little darling to celebrate it with us. So happie hee hee. We love our little angel. He is now sleeping soundly now, he is so so so cute. Love him so so so much. So glad to have him with us.
Had been letting Nathan latch on since his birth. Really enjoyed these private moments that i share with him even though there are also times when i hoped he can finish faster so that i can sleep in the middle of the night. I wonder how i can take it when it comes to a time when he no longer needs/wants to drink my breastmilk and there will no longer be times when he latched on to me. The bonding and attachment built during these moments are so magical and special that nothing can ever replace it. I really enjoyed looking and touching Nathan while he is sucking. He is so adorable. Most of the times he will fall asleep on my breast after a short while and it is always so 幸福 just to look at him, to stroke his head, his face, little nose, chubby cheeks, little hands, little feet, his tummy, his back, in fact his body. I feel so glad that i have a son whom i can love with all my heart and soul. I felt that god is really kind to me by giving me such a wonderful gift. I love you Nathan. Maybe one day 10 or 20 years down the road if you happen to read this blog, remember mummy will always always always love you and be with you and stand by your side. You are mummy’s little darling.
Today we brought Nathan to Botanical Garden together with 爷爷 and 奶奶. The weather was quite hot. He keeps frowning and he was so tired at the end of it that he fell asleep while walking back to the car. Hot hot hot hot and Nathan dun like hot hot weather. Our poor boi was perspiring quite a fair bit.
Today we brought Nathan to Hwa Xia to swim in the bb tub. The moment we let him into the tub, he started kicking and moving about. He seems to be enjoying himself so much. He really likes to swim haha. He was kicking so hard. He looked as if he is really swimming. His posture looked so much like swimming frog style. The shop attendant said Nathan is very brave cos it was his 1st time and he is not scared at all and seems to be enjoying himself so much. The moment we bring him up, he started crying so so so so so so badly. We have never seen him cry so badly. Aiyo. So heartpain. Needs lots of coaxing and sayanging. My boy seems to like swimming so much. Wonder next time how it will be like when we bring him to the swimming pool to swim. Wonder what will his reaction be like.
Today i saw my Nathan trying to lift his head up while lying his back. I was feeding him and carrying him with his back on my arms. He tried a few times to lift his head up!!! Wow!! Amazing!! Probably this is one of his milestones but nonetheless still feel excited about it. I am not going to miss out any of his “1st” events! Wonder what is he going to do next.
Today i did something terribly wrong. I was putting Nathan into his sarong, didn’t hold him too tightly and his shoulders got into the way of the sarong and he fell. His bump hit the ground and he cried so loudly and badly that i’ve never seen before. I felt so lousy and guilty. Cried together with him. Took me quite a while to settle him. My poor baby. Mummy is so so so so so so sorry. Called the pd. They say only bump hit the ground should be all right. Just need to monitor. Felt so so so bad and guilty. What kind of mother am i? sob sob sob sob. Will baby still love mummy? He is baby and nothing can ever happen to him. Mummy will be very very careful next time. I am so sorry. Mummy sayang baby alot. My poor boy.
Look what my daddy did to me this morning. Wonder what is he going to try next.
